life · poetry · Uncategorized

Anxiety

I can smell it

I can sense it, Anxiety.

It’s a stench that I can’t seem to wash off.

Pressure coming at me from my right to left.

And all around me.

The four corner of this walls are suffocating me.

Expectations weighing my heart down.

 

 

#anxiety

 

 

 

 

Christ · encourage · faith · God · inspirational · life · poetry · self care · Uncategorized

Singleness

 

 

I am all but whole,

But not alone.

Single but not lonely.

Forever falling in loving, with me.

 

In this season

Between birth & death.

A time frowned upon my

The young & the old.

That only come once in a life time.

Like sand of time in an hour glass.

Once gone never to return

.

I am single but never alone.

I am single but never lonely.

 

I find joy in the time I spend with self

Time to know who I am

Time to discover my purpose

Time to fulfill my destiny on earth.

 

Life is a gift

Most precious kind.

We only given one life to live

To be who I was created to be.

 

I am single but never alone

faith · love · poem · poetry · Uncategorized

A beacon on a hill

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You’re a beacon on the light house

A light that can’t be hidden.

Your light shines bright in darkest night.

Directing my path and leading me.

 

Beautiful are your feet,

For you bring good tidings.

His Word is a lamp to your feet

And a light to your path.

The Lord directs your steps.

So you do not stumble.

Blessed are you, in your coming in

And you’re going out.

Blessed to be a blessing.

 

Fresh anointing, new oil,

Refreshing presence.

God breathing life,

Resurrecting that which is dead.

Giving you a crown of life.

Heirs of royalty.

 

You were wonderfully and masterfully Made,

For such time as this.

TO MAKE DISCIPLES OF ALL NATIONS,

BAPTIZING THEM IN THE NAME OF THE

FATHER

THE SON & THE HOLY SPIRIT

 


 

You will be missed and those whom you have impacted like myself will never forget. You no matter where you go, I will always carry you in our hearts, and I know that God will be with you where ever he takes you, and enjoy this great adventure that you are embarking at this point of your life. You have been an pastor, mentor, teacher, friend, sister and mother to be me, no words can sum up  the love I have for you  😊💖❤🙌✨

Christ · faith · poem · poetry · Uncategorized

The Christian struggle

Do my friend know I’m a Christian?

Do my friends believe i’m a Christian?

 

I’m living in a bubble

Self proclaimed believer I call myself

Attend endless Sunday to Sunday Services

Some days i’m as close to God as if he lives in my own skin

And Other days  He is so far, that i’m so alone and death surrounds me.

 

They say Christians are

LOVING

FORGIVING

KIND

GENTLE

JOYOUS

 

Are you this things out of a duty or is it out of Love.

Does love led in your heart.

 

 

 

 

 

[trying to find the right words, but im failing to get them out]

energy · faith · God · poetry · self care · self-esteem · Uncategorized

Little eagle

IMG_7976set free, made alive.

cage opened wide so

I could fly out the cage

like an eagle longing

to go home.

 

The sky is it’s home.

where it feels the wind

go through it body.

and the higher it soars

The more at home it feels

 

I flew to close to ground

while i was meant for the sky

My wings were clipped

by self condemnation.

 

But this little eagle was set

free and told to live life to

the fullest in freedom

 

faith · God · poetry · Uncategorized

I don’t have too but I want too

I don’t have too

But I want too

My flesh is warn out

My feet ache

My eyes slowly closing the door

My heart faint

But still I will rise

I don’t have too

But I want too

For every time I fall

The more I learn how to raise up

As the sun fall and rises

Day in and day out.

So will I rise

Rise greater heights as the stars

And and break through limitations

To see you what is beyond the ceiling.

My fuel to my rocket ship is Love

And the foundation that hold me up

Is Love(God) itself.

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signs and wonder vs Gods word

John 4:47-53
47 When this man heard that Jesus had arrived in Galilee from Judea, he went to him and begged him to come and heal his son, who was close to death. 
48 “Unless you people see signs and wonders,”Jesus told him, “you will never believe.” 
49 The royal official said, “Sir, come down before my child dies.” 
50 “Go,” Jesus replied, “your son will live.”The man took Jesus at his word and departed. 
51 While he was still on the way, his servants met him with the news that his boy was living. 
52 When he inquired as to the time when his son got better, they said to him, “Yesterday, at one in the afternoon, the fever left him.” 
53 Then the father realized that this was the exact time at which Jesus had said to him, “Your son will live.” So he and his whole household believed. 
I love this story, I just released that we sometimes pray prayers that are already answered. We argue with God and beg Him for something. The hard part that is difficult is we fail to believe in the absence of sign and wonders. We become people who want to witness the miracle take place in front of our eyes. We need to know that God is faithful and believe that, lets move from seeing is believing to believing is seeing. Relationship with God is the thing that is most precious in the world. The more we know Him the more we believe in his promises. lets not depend on signs or the works of Gods hands, but God Himself. The man in this story eventually gave in to God and believed Him, that his son was healed. And Jesus did not have to go all the way to this royal officials house to heal his Son. Gods word went forth and did what it was suppose to do when He said “your son lives”
inspirational · life · poetry · self care · Uncategorized

Void

I don’t feel okay.
okay.
It’s okay to not be okay.
My light dimmed in lightest day.
Today is dark, as day become void.
No space in this vacuum of life.
joy, happiness sucked away in a bling.
day turned to night.
The clouds over shadow my my inner being.
light overcast by a storm and quenched.
It’s cause I do not know.
It’s origin I do not know.
But what I do know is what i can feel it.
It’s okay not to be okay.

Christ · life · love · poetry · relationship · self care · Uncategorized

Me in You

your are in me and I in you.

when I am lost, one look at you.

I find myself in you,

you are my map home, you are home.

Complete I am, when i’m with you

 

when I thirst, I drink from  the fountains of your love.

I’m in love with loving you.

Like a drunken man who let go of the bottle.

Like a baby wails for his mom.

as much as or even more than I love my life.

I LOVE YOU

 
Kindness S