I’m fighting a war, this war does not take place on a ordinary battle-field. But in another plain. The heart. I war with the questions of, what is love? And exploring the edges or the difference between words like infatuation, lust and love. As if I am walking on the edge of a blade and as I get to find my answers its feels like I ever closer for falling on my own sword. There are those who dwell in the world, whom fear love, others see it as a weakness and a few see it as a strength. For me, I realized that it is Love that makes us human. And without it, we have no humanity but become like the beasts that walk the earth, lost and alone without love.
I have no words to define, how you make me feel, Could it be love? Love sparked in the few seconds when my eyes met yours. Like the warmth of a burning furnace. The warmth of your smile, sets me on fire. I have not yet felt love or known it, in my youth. But I wonder if I have found love, in you. Love being more than just a feeling. But Something that transcend the heavens it selves. A few stars ever get to find there soulmate. But some remain forever star-crossed. Here on earth you are the sun in the heavens. I pray hat one day the sun, will ever loves me. Because you the sun is also a star, my star. And you center me.
The one I loved.
or thought I loved.
Never loved me the way
I expected to be loved.
Missing the mark to my heart
And I hers. Destiny fated against us.
As we slowly fade away, like mist over a lake.
Our hearts wishing if maybe it was a different season
or maybe a few days ago. we would align, like
the Orion constellation in perfect harmony.
This is my heart ache.
I will mourning us for the day
but tomorrow I move on.
Knock knock knock!
Sin knocks at my door
Asking to enter
With each knock I’m tempted to open the door
Don’t know how much longer
I can hang on.
So tempted promising pleasure
To satisfy my need to be loved.
To fill the whole church could not fill.
To fulfill my every need.
The sense of just being in peace.
Trust me, it can deliver.
Lust is my craving
My body craves it like a drug
That promises to give a high,
That will make everything okay.
My being thrown in to the storm
My spirit fights me.
Trying to safe my life.
The underdog that victory
Looks far from reality
In the end I am only human.
Who am I?
Fighting a fight that can’t be won.
Sin is my weakness
Sin is trying to sell me American dream.
I hear a quiet voice saying
Sin can be conquered.
It may look impossible
But it’s possible.
One men won it war for all men
So I can stand in victory
Sin nailed to the cross too never resurrect.
Jesus proved it and lived it.
Satan the is the liar promising
A short moment of fame
But destroy your happily forever ever.
Jesus is the answer
He is the church
Enter into His body
Eat and Remember who He is
“I am the Church
Ready to save you at a moment’s notice.”
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My blood boils
My heart yarns for more
Your love is an ocean that never runs dry
From the top of my head to the
Soul of my feet will seek your face.
You are the first thought in my wake
And the last thought when I sleep.
Drench my soul with you love
For the Lamb was slain.
For The Christ was put to death.
Washing away all my iniquities
The love that I have for you
Has no words to define it.
Like sweet honey
And the sweet aroma of a perfume is your Love is for me.
As my lungs still take breathe
Till my last breathe.
I will glorify your Name above all other.
You’re a beacon on the light house
A light that can’t be hidden.
Your light shines bright in darkest night.
Directing my path and leading me.
Beautiful are your feet,
For you bring good tidings.
His Word is a lamp to your feet
And a light to your path.
The Lord directs your steps.
So you do not stumble.
Blessed are you, in your coming in
And you’re going out.
Blessed to be a blessing.
Fresh anointing, new oil,
God breathing life,
Resurrecting that which is dead.
Giving you a crown of life.
Heirs of royalty.
You were wonderfully and masterfully Made,
For such time as this.
TO MAKE DISCIPLES OF ALL NATIONS,
BAPTIZING THEM IN THE NAME OF THE
THE SON & THE HOLY SPIRIT
You will be missed and those whom you have impacted like myself will never forget. You no matter where you go, I will always carry you in our hearts, and I know that God will be with you where ever he takes you, and enjoy this great adventure that you are embarking at this point of your life. You have been an pastor, mentor, teacher, friend, sister and mother to be me, no words can sum up the love I have for you 😊💖❤🙌✨
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your are in me and I in you.
when I am lost, one look at you.
I find myself in you,
you are my map home, you are home.
Complete I am, when i’m with you
when I thirst, I drink from the fountains of your love.
I’m in love with loving you.
Like a drunken man who let go of the bottle.
Like a baby wails for his mom.
as much as or even more than I love my life.
I LOVE YOU
I was blind
I say again I was blind
But now I see.
I lived in a world were…
We would see the front cover
But never the whole story
Only getting half of the truth
When I met you everything changed
I listened to your story
As you spoke, I felt your pain
And my heart for a moment
Broke with yours.
How could they? How can someone
Do that? Why would they? A
Million questions raised in my mind.
My heart boiled with hatred
Against them, my heart burning
For justice. I try to make sense of it
But it has no sense, it just insanity.
All I could give this perfect stranger
Was words of comfort, love
Love that was not mine
Hope from all high
I gave her the Love of Christ
I gave her greater hope
In a better tomorrow
I gave what I had,
I gave her Christ.
I was blind
But now I see.
[When I think of what happened to this person I think of the countless women who are abused or raped, its time for Christians, the world and individuals to stand up, or what’s right.]
Matthew 11: 28-30
28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
Whomever has been through the most in life, people around you may never understand the pain you’re going through, but God is there, He is there to take the weight of your shoulder and help you overcome. The world we live in is not a perfect world we live in because of sin. There is a saying that says “hurting people, hurt people”.
New friendship, has a certain aroma to it.
Don’t you think?
It is as if, its the break of spring.
caring the sweet taste of honey,
and bring great joy to an tired old heart.
It signals the beginning of a new dawn.
One with no end in sight.
This new friendship is like bust of light
that shines in my dark days.
I find peace in knowing that you dear friends are not
Always there, never gone.
To sprinkle a little joy and happiness
on my delicious muffin called my life.
[Pelly, Jassica & Kgothatso
to new beginnings]