love · mothers · Uncategorized

mommy

Mom don’t cry

Your once radiant smile is fading away.

It captured a 1000 hearts with a single glance.

Your heart had no end.

It’s was as wide as the galaxy itself.

 

Today as I look at your you.

The heavens don’t seem to contain your glory.

The smile is gone

That heart that once captured many is closed.

The galaxy that was endless is but shrinking.

 

How unnatural is this sight to watch.

How a little more hopeless is the world without your smile.

How cold as have we become without your loving heart.

 

Pain is the negative energy that consumes you.

The black hole within your being that swallows you.

All I can do to aid you recover is pray “our Father”

And share all the love I can give to you.

love · poetry · relationship · Uncategorized

Fire fly

Fire fly you burn so bright at night
And you burn even brighter at my darkest night.
You’re so tiny and look so insignificant
Yet when you fly you are as beautiful as the moon and the stars.

My fire fly,
You flew were you were not wanted
You saw what you were not suppose to see.
Yet after seeing the darkest parts of me,
You stay and continue to choose to stay.

You became my morning star.
You will always be my little fire fly.
The one whom stole my heart away with a small but radiant light.

Christ · depression · encourage · love · poetry · relationship · Uncategorized

Blood Boils

 

My blood boil and my heart aches

I feel alone yet surrounded by many

A part of my fractured heart has given up on help coming.

I’ve become acquainted with showing friends and family a smile.

 

Yet my blood is boiling and keeps on boiling. I don’t know why maybe this is who I am. That the lie I tell myself.

I search this life for answers to cool down the hot magma that rises in me.

 

I’m afraid that one day, that lava will spill to those who live in the valley below. They praise me for the mountain that I am, for the soil and nutrients that I bring to their life’s and are blind to the dangers that I bring.

 

I am angry and don’t know why at times.

Maybe it’s the family dysfunction that causes the magma to swell up or the disappointment that tore my heart in times past.

 

Yes, the ocean is my hope.

You bring the wind to cool me down when I’m about to erupt. Your wind comforts my soul. Your water seeps into my entire being and restores me to a dormant state.

 

I yearn for the days when your high tide comes to my mountain shores. You bring the promise of hope and salvation, the village could not save me for they do not see nor know what lurks under the mountain.

 

The ocean is coming and the day has been set. For you promised to come to save me from all that I feel. Ocean you are vaster and greater than a single mountain you cover the earth and bring balance to what exists.

 

Lord my ocean I wait for you to save me.

From the pain l, the loneliness, and especially from my self. Teach me oh ocean to love myself. Like the peace exists in you the depth and with of love that you possess. Consume me for I desire to be one with you.

 

 

 

 

Christ · encourage · faith · health · life · love · Uncategorized

Presence

Lord to see more of you and know you

Is my heart greatest dream.

You are the one think I thirst for.

The bread that I grieve above all bread.

I thirst for being one with you.

To know you as I know my being.

 

May it be known that I no longer three but four parts in you.

I have a body, a soul and a spirit

& now I have your Holy Spirit whom is God.

 

Abide in me and I will abide you.

Ever draw near to me and I will to you.

You neither forsake nor leave me.

You are ever present God.

 

 

love · poem · poetry · relationship · Uncategorized

battlefield of love

I’m fighting a war, this war does not take place on a ordinary battle-field. But in another plain. The heart. I war with the questions of, what is love? And exploring the edges or the difference between words like infatuation, lust and love. As if I am walking on the edge of a blade and as I get to find my answers its feels like I ever closer for falling on my own sword. There are those who dwell in the world, whom fear love, others see it as a weakness and a few see it as a strength. For me, I realized that it is Love that makes us human. And without it, we have no humanity but become like the beasts that walk the earth, lost and alone without love.

love · poetry · Uncategorized

could it be love?

I have no words to define, how you make me feel, Could it be love? Love sparked in the few seconds when my eyes met yours. Like the warmth of a burning furnace. The warmth of your smile, sets me on fire. I have not yet felt love or known it, in my youth. But I wonder if I have found love, in you. Love being more than just a feeling. But Something that transcend the heavens it selves. A few stars ever get to find there soulmate. But some remain forever star-crossed.  Here on earth you are the sun in the heavens. I pray hat one day the sun, will ever loves me. Because you the sun  is also a star, my star. And you center me.

love · poetry · relationship · Uncategorized

Unexpected Love

The one I loved.

or thought I loved.

Never loved me the way

I expected to be loved.

 

Missing the mark to my heart

And I hers. Destiny fated against us.

As we slowly fade away, like mist over a lake.

 

Our hearts wishing if maybe it was a different season

or maybe a few days ago. we would align, like

the Orion constellation in perfect harmony.

 

This is my heart ache.

I will mourning us for the day

but tomorrow I move on.

Christ · encourage · faith · hop · life · love · poetry

I am a sinner

Knock knock knock!

Sin knocks at my door

Asking to enter

 

With each knock I’m tempted to open the door

Don’t know how much longer

I can hang on.

 

So tempted promising pleasure

To satisfy my need to be loved.

To fill the whole church could not fill.

To fulfill my every need.

The sense of just being in peace.

Trust me, it can deliver.

 

Lust is my craving

My body craves it like a drug

That promises to give a high,

That will make everything okay.

 

My being thrown in to the storm

My spirit fights me.

Trying to safe my life.

The underdog that victory

Looks far from reality

 

In the end I am only human.

I’m weak

Who am I?

Fighting a fight that can’t be won.

Sin is my weakness

Sin is trying to sell me American dream.

 

I hear a quiet voice saying

Sin can be conquered.

It may look impossible

But it’s possible.

 

One men won it war for all men

So I can stand in victory

Sin nailed to the cross too never resurrect.

 

Jesus proved it and lived it.

Satan the is the liar promising

A short moment of fame

But destroy your happily forever ever.

 

Jesus is the answer

He is the church

Healing ready

Resting waiting

Enter into His body

Eat and Remember who He is

 

He says

“I am the Church

Your Savior

Ready to save you at a moment’s notice.”

 

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God · love · poetry · Uncategorized

Sweet Love

My blood boils

My heart yarns for more

Your love is an ocean that never runs dry

From the top of my head to the

Soul of my feet will seek your face.

You are the first thought in my wake

And the last thought when I sleep.

Drench my soul with you love

For the Lamb was slain.

For The Christ was put to death.

Washing away all my iniquities

The love that I have for you

Has no words to define it.

Like sweet honey

And the sweet aroma of a perfume is your Love is for me.

As my lungs still take breathe

Till my last breathe.

I will glorify your Name above all other.

Jesus!

faith · love · poem · poetry · Uncategorized

A beacon on a hill

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You’re a beacon on the light house

A light that can’t be hidden.

Your light shines bright in darkest night.

Directing my path and leading me.

 

Beautiful are your feet,

For you bring good tidings.

His Word is a lamp to your feet

And a light to your path.

The Lord directs your steps.

So you do not stumble.

Blessed are you, in your coming in

And you’re going out.

Blessed to be a blessing.

 

Fresh anointing, new oil,

Refreshing presence.

God breathing life,

Resurrecting that which is dead.

Giving you a crown of life.

Heirs of royalty.

 

You were wonderfully and masterfully Made,

For such time as this.

TO MAKE DISCIPLES OF ALL NATIONS,

BAPTIZING THEM IN THE NAME OF THE

FATHER

THE SON & THE HOLY SPIRIT

 


 

You will be missed and those whom you have impacted like myself will never forget. You no matter where you go, I will always carry you in our hearts, and I know that God will be with you where ever he takes you, and enjoy this great adventure that you are embarking at this point of your life. You have been an pastor, mentor, teacher, friend, sister and mother to be me, no words can sum up  the love I have for you  😊💖❤🙌✨