Christ · faith

Heart-burn & a Heart soaked in tears

Heart-burn

Fire on my feet
Fire on my toes
Fire all around me.

Consumed with what’s people say is best.
But what’s always best for other can’t always be best for me.
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I’m developing a heart condition, something is weighing on my heart and it won’t leave till I get it off my chest. And confront it.
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A heart soaked in Tears

My heart is soaked in tears.
Tears that continue to flow.
My mind thrown into chaos.
Clouded my others opinion.
My true heart,
Shine a path for me.
Will I take it?

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God give me strength too. And the courage and wisdom to follow my heart.
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action · Christ · encourage · insecurity · inspirational · life

Themba And The Two Bartender

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There lived a guy named Themba, he was tall and handsome with a nice trimmed cut with burned sides. He lived in the city of Gauteng Johannesburg, Themba at that point was going through a rough path in his life. His wife left and divorced him. Themba would go far deep into the City of Johannesburg to a bar named The Cocktail Lounge. It was the best bar in the city with star recommendations. It had the best music that echoed as it hit the walls, there were beautiful ladies serving on a trey that would take his mind off his sorrows. At what Themba loved most about it was the bartender, he would make drinks that would set him free from worry, stress, anxiety and the pain he felt.

There was another bar that was just around the corner in which Themba would pass every time he would make his way to The Cocktail Lounge. This bar was not the most glamorous bar in the block and there was a rumour that they only served some kind of water there. The bar was called Hill Tops. It only had a few people, most of the costumers left to go to the fancier bar that most people would say was a paradise.

Themba developed a curiosity about the bar, but he was happy at The Cocktail Lounge. Even though he was hurting the rest of the day except for the time he was at this Cocktail Lounge for the two hours of paradise. Whilst at the bar Themba would do what he always enjoyed doing which was talking to the bartender, he became something like Themba’s priest, while he was indulging himself in drinking. The bartenders name was Seth Damion. Oh he had a clever tongue whatever words he said, would sound like the truth. He knew how to make people feel good about themselves. He would give his customers advice that seemed to be the cure for all their life’s problem, but was actually a match that would light a spark to them.

One fateful day, as Themba was walking down the road to the place he rest his mind. To lay in sins bed for the next hour. He felt the other bar calling him, this time it was not like the other time, it was like he heard a quite whisper in his ear saying ‘come’. Themba decided that maybe it’s time for a change of scenery for a while, so he made his way to Hill Tops. The place was like nothing he imagined, it seemed to be a regular bar on the outside. So Themba took a sit at the bar. At this point Themba started a conversation with the bartender as it was his routine of doing at this point, Themba read the name Jes on the bartenders name tag. The bartender tried to correct him but was shut down, Themba just wanted to get his worries off his chest with a drink of Hunters Dry or something strong like Vodka.

Themba asked for a drink Hunters to get his night started, the bartender said ‘sorry we don’t serve that here’. Themba then asked for a drink of Gin iced, the bartender also did not serve that too. The bar men then told him the only drink they served at this bar was water. Themba chuckled and said ‘really the rumours are true’ with a look of disbelieve on his face, he asked himself what kind of bar is this that does not serve alcohol, he then finally said with a higher pitch what do you serve then’, he was frustrated at this point and needed a drink to soak all his sorrows and worries. Jes told him that they only sold water not just any water, a special type of water that could only be found here witch was actually shipped from a foreign country.

Themba took the drink and had a sip of it, its texture was like water, but the taste was not like everyday water, it had a sweet taste to it and it had a small punch to it. It was unlike anything he ever had. Themba started talking to the bar man and said things he never had said to others and during this time he realised things that he was at fault for and finally took responsibility for it, Jes was there as a ear to listen and guide him. As Themba continued talking he drank more and more water. And he realised the more he drank the happier he would become. He asked the bar man what kind of water was this and the bar man answered, ‘Its living water’. He then further went on to say ‘My name is not Jes, but Jesus the uniform is getting old and I need to get that fixed, are you enjoying your drink.’

Themba was shocked and amazed he knew that there was something different to this bartender, he knew this was true deep inside his soul. His mind was blown wide open, he asked Jesus what is the reason for this encounter and he said ‘I am here for you, I am here so that you can have life, and have it to the fullest. I love you and want to set you free from the hole you are in, I’ve been called from the start and today you heard me. Take my living water and let me in so I can help you’. Themba was happy to surrender his life to the bartender, he knew there is nothing that can go wrong with him by his side.

From that day Themba was happier in life, and full of joy. He stopped drinking and changed his life for the better. Hill Tops bar mysteriously disappeared after that day. Themba thought maybe he was drunk that day and he was seeing things, but that day illusion or not his life was changed forever. Themba felt like he was reborn, a new person. He searched for the place where he could get some of that drink of water he had had in the bar, He found a church although the water did not come in the same shape, he still knew and felt, a gentle touch of that bartenders presence in the church. He finally was set let free from the prison he was in and brought in to the light, a better life of purpose and never ending joy like a fairy tale with a Happily Ever After.

 

The End.

 

Kindness S

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we all have seasons where we face had times and we tend to down in emotions of anger, regret, loneliness. At this time we would make bad decision in attempt to comfort ourselves. Like drinking or any substance and there are those who would even scar themselves. Well i’m here to tell you today that its not over. You don’t have to go through the worst on your own, you may think nobody person understand you, but there is one who knows you inside out, he wants to be with you in this times, where you are pushing everyone away. He want to listen to all the things you want to say. He has not come t o condemn you (John 3:17), but to give you  life and life in abundance (John 10:10). He want you to come lay your burdens on him, so he can give rest to your soul and remove all the weight that on your chest (Matt 11:27-28). Don’t give up God got you, just call on him and he will be there.

John 3:17 (condemnation)

17 For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.

John 10:10 (abundant life)

10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

Matthew 11:28-29 ( Rest & peace of mind)

 28 Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am[f]gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

#poetry · Christ · poem · Uncategorized

Why write?

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When pen meets paper

And the Ink splashes onto the paper.

My mind becomes clear as water.

As emotions flow like a river.

 

My heart utters its truth in words.

My lips can bear to speak.

It paints and inks a masterpiece.

Of the hearts true beauty captured in words.

 

My blood boils without my pen and paper

My soul is weighed down.

My heart weakened by life’s blows.

Inner thoughts are filter by words.

 

As I write, my broken heart heals.

Pieces put back together.

My mind is at peace.

My body relaxes.

All is well in my Being.

 

And sometimes I write.

To speak truth.

To encourage and inspire.

To change and alter life.

To show my unseen love for you.

 

Kindness S

 

 

 

#poetry · #purpose · action · Christ · God

The Truth

 

Conflict raises in my being

Between two loud voices.

Between my mind and soul.

One is of logic and the other feeling.

 

Where lays the truth

Heavy decision must be made

Only one voice can sway my path

Which path should decide my future?

 

My mind is clever.

It comes at me with lists and what if’s

Like a super computer, weighing the scales.

Data gathered from all works of life and others experiences.

 

My soul speaks

But what I hear is demands action

It lives in the present, it disregards past experiences.

Raw emotion pulling my ear to listen.

 

God own spirit speaks to my soul

My soul agrees with this spirit and my soul screams louder.

This voice in conflict with people expectations and wishes of your life.

 

Soul and mind.

Which will my choice.

The truth of who I am hidden in my feelings

And counterfeited truth of what I should do in the mind.

 

What will I pick?

Feelings or Mind.

#love · Christ · encourage · insecurity · life · poem · relationship · self care · self-esteem · women

Reflection

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I am brunette

I am beautiful yet gorgeous.

And I am always on point.

 

Tall long legs,

Blue eyes.

Slim waist

Evenly toned skin.

 

Every day I face the mirror

It’s reflects truth of

How I look?

It tells me what works,

And what doesn’t

 

Its opinion is non bias.

10 min in day.

It judges my look.

And hands me the final vote.

 

When I leave Mirrors reflection

I am own my own.

Unable to view self (me).

I reflect back on what mirror showed me earlier.

 

I don’t forget my image,

I took a snap shot and

Stored into my memory.

Memories remind me of my beauty.

 

Mirror reveals.

Mirror tells truth.

Except the hearts reflection.

And how fare the heart?

 

Kindness S

 

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Been thinking on What James said in James 1:24-26. We as people use mirrors every single day from brushing our teeth to calming our hair and for the ladies who use the mirror to do makeup. After all is done with we leave the mirror knowing that we look okay. You definitely won’t forget how you look. Like the way we look at ourselves in the morning we should look at it like the Bible, not just seeing it or browsing through it but be doers of what it says.

22 Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says. 23 Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like someone who looks at his face in a mirror 24 and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25 But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.

I love women and the role the play in society. I love the strength and the unconditional love they have to overcome trials and obstacles, which I have seen from my own mom and the friends I have around me. Like people MJ, Dineo, Matevhu, Tshili and others. Women should be appreciated and valued more. I appreciate you guys, lots of love.

 

#love · #poetry · Christ · encourage · faith · poem · Uncategorized

Called for the World #globalcitizen

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Love God, Love people

Love people, love the world.

 

Love is accompanied by change

Any value + love = change.

(X+ love= change)

Love is essential.

Love is key

Love People = changing hearts & minds.

 

Love a person change a life

Love a people change a nation

Love a nation change the world

 

A planet in tears for change…

From the poor

From the sick

From the orphans

From the cries of the abused.

 

Loving GOD + Loving People & the World = To Changed societies and nations.

 

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Did you know each time you feed the poor you are feeding Jesus, or give cloths you give to Him. Even when you visit someone in prison. In Matthew 10:40-45. You don’t have to go far to make a difference where you are is just fine. Start something that will benefit others. The best live lived is one that is in service of others.

 

Matthew 25:34-40

“Then the King will say to those on his right, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world.35 For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36 I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’ 37 “Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38 When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39 When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?’ 40 And the King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you id for one of the least of these brothers of Mine, you did for Me.’

 

http://www.globalcitizen.org

An simple email or tweet can make a difference

#love · Christ · faith · God · poem · relationship · Uncategorized

The heart-breaking story of Will Johnson

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This is a story about two people a boy and a girl. Love has bloom early and the aroma of young love is in the air. A sent of jasmine flower that pulls your heart. This tail tells of two 16 year old’s named Will & Jannat, who grow up in a small quiet little town of Jackson Valley.

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Will was a young boy with curly hair and a dark chocolate skin color, he blended in like every teenager in school. Will was setting in class when a new transfer student Jannat walked in class. Will starred at her as if time had stopped, Will noticed that she had hair as smooth as silk and her eyes were hazel brown. At that moment. Will felt something beating in is heart he could not explain for someone he had never met. He knew on the inside he did not want the feeling to end.

 

Mrs Adams introduced Jannat to the class and gave her a seat away from Will to sit for the rest of the year. Class commenced and the period went forward. Jannat was new to the school she was nervous and had not even found one friend yet. She was pretty shy for that whole first week, she barely noticed Will watching her from a distance with eyes of admiration. She later made a new friend named Sarah who would soon be her best friend. They became inseparable as school year continued.

 

Will day in and day out finally figured out that “wow I think I like Jannat”. It was the first time for Him. He came to a realisation and acceptance of this, a week of meeting the wonderful Jannat. With each passing day Will would attend same classes with Jannat and would occasionally speak to her and they would make small talk. Each passing day, Will would like her more and more. And eventually this feelings became love.

 

Time has passed and it was the Third quarter of the school year. Jannat finally confessed  to Sarah that she really liked Will and thought he was the cutest. Will had no idea of this. Will on a Friday night approached Jannat he slowly walked towards her as he was as cool as a cucumber on the inside and the most nervousness  he has ever felt. He opened his mouth and said “Jannat may I talk to you for a minute”. Jannat said “sure”. Will told her in a long winded why how much he LIKED HER, his words at first where hard for him to say but eventually he did. Jannat breathe taken at what she thought this could only happen her dream, came to life in front of her eyes. She said four simple words to Will “I LIKE YOU TOO”.  There was then a breeze of awkward silence in the air. Will caught off guard speechless, out of all the possible scenario’s he played in his head, he never saw this coming. He then quickly said to her in a moments hast without thought “Will you be my girlfriend”. Jannat agreed and it was sealed.

 

How they fell for one another within the first week, they were constantly together, staring into each others eyes lost in space, no words necessary to communicate. Sarah the best friend begin to see her friend Jannat a lot less. This is the nature of love. The school year come to an end and so much had happened through the course of that time. Jannat had made more friends and joined a sports team, Will signed up for extra class and various activitys for extra credit, oh and Sarah still friends with Jannat, she had a crush on someone and also joined her best friend in taking up a sport.

 

Something happened that summer holiday. Jannat’s parents sat her down, they had not so exciting news to tell her.Her Dad said “Sweaty, I got an amazing job opportunity to work for an engineering company. We are going to have to move across state to Wisconsin in two weeks’ time”. Jannat’s heart dropped and she feel into a daze her mom tired explaining the reasons but she heard nothing of it, over taken by shock. Jannat had a lot of processing to do with this information and how she would go about it.

 

After three days of processing she came to a decision that she would have to break up with Will in order to for him to be able to move on without her in his life. A big decision left in the hands of a teenager. Later that day she picked up the phone and gave Will a call, you see she was not strong enough to do it in person. She told him that she loves him but it won’t work and anymore and “IT’S OVER” because she is moving far away and dropped the phone. And that was that, She never saw Will till the day she left, she messaged him a month later after she had moved.

 

 

Will on the other end of the phone call, was heartbroken at hearing that she was leaving Jackson Valley and when he had also heard what she said next his heart broke into more pieces, like a mosaic on the floor. She is not only leaving town but him too. The words “IT’S OVER” rang in his heard over and over again. Days passed whilst Will tried getting hold of his love with no success, than a few days later she had left”.

 

In Will’s home, his Mom began to worry about him. She was a single parent and she did not know that Will even had a girlfriend. To her eyes Will was still her little innocent boy who was single and haven’t had his first kiss yet. Will began to close off emotionally and a while later he barely ate. His mom had no clue what was going on with him, Will spoke less by the day. His mom in desperation sent her son to all the best help money could buy.Psychologists, doctors and other specialists to look and test her son.

 

After months of testing and probing the doctors and the specialist figured out what’s wrong with Will. He had a pain that they were unable to treat and that was a BROKEN HEART. Mom found out from who and why from Will’s  friend who had come forward after she approached him. Mom had no way to turn to help her son. A week had passed and she had met someone whom she had invited into her home and into her heart and He was Jesus Christ. He preferred being called Jesus or J for short.

 

This man told Wills mom (Marry) that He is able to help him out. Marry jumped in joy as she was hearing this and she then was overjoyed. Jesus instructed Marry to take a passage of scripture from his word and go read it to your son and I will guide you what to read to him. Jesus gave her three passages to read from. And she read

 

Isaiah 61:1

“…sent Jesus to heal the broken-heated, proclaim freedom to the captives, and to open the prison of the bound”

 

She read some more

John 10:10

“… I have come to that you may have life and life in abundance.”

And lastly

 

Colossians 1:2

… being knitted together in love, and attaining to all riches of the full assurance of understanding, to the knowledge of God, both Father and Christ.”

 

 

When she was done reading something magical happened to his hear that she could not, his broken heart was pulled back together. It was a new heart, better than the last. Will than invited the man who had fixed his heart like her mom had done. And after that day He had a greater love that resided in him one that will never ever leave him. A love that forever. And a kind of love that no one could ever in a million years separate him from

 

The End

 

 

Kindness S

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I wrote this short story because you know why. We could be going on life with an untreated heart issue that could have happened to you in your past or is happening to you. The heart is one of the most important organ in the human body, it is where all the issues of life come from. So if it’s infected or injured it’s a problem. Guys there is not all the ice-cream in the world you could eat to heal your heart. Maybe you have tried other ways and they have not worked for you. Give Jesus a try and let see if He can, if he says he can surely he can. He has been doing it for me every time I got to close to the flame meaning ladies and got burned.

 

“The longest piece I ever wrote

Hope it’s great.”

#poetry · Christ · encourage · poem · Uncategorized · wisdom

Hold your TONGUE.

The tongue, is a mere member of the human body.

This tool allows for us to birth words out of thin air.

Utters the sound of new born babies cry.

It thunders the sounds of life.

 

Men, king of thy Earth.

Conquerors of all living creature.

We have tamed all beasts.

Dragons too lions none ruins above us.

 

There is one thing,

That we have not been able to hold captive.

It’s been illusive for many generations.

It’s no creature.

 

It resides in the roof of your mouth.

Its character is neither bad nor good.

It speaks the hearts truth.

Occasionally the minds thoughts.

 

We have failed…

Given dominion since Genesis Day.

We have tamed all but one.

There is only one other remains that can tame this beast.

 

He is All in All.

Fully man and fully God.

Known as many as the Messiah.

Only he who created life as all authority over it.

My choices that lay before me is to speak life or death.

I put my tongue under His authority, Day in Day out. So that I may speak life.

 

 

 

Kindness S

 

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Have you ever said something you wish you could take back, words that you never meant to come out of your month? That all of us. For me I’ve been told that when I get to excited I say the dumbest things ever, this is just one example out of the many. Sometimes the problem, may be because we don’t listen more than we speak. We are quick to speak than listen we all want to be heard that way we do that. I read somewhere it says wiser is he that is slow to speaking then quick to listen. The Book of James in the 3rd chapter from verse 5-6 states

 

“Even so the tongue is a little member and boasts great things. See how great a forest a little fire kindles! And the tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body, and set fire the course of nature, and it is set on fire by hell.”

also feel free for reference read Ephe 4:29

Christ · food · God · life style · poem · self care · self-esteem · Uncategorized

My favourite food

Food, Food, Food.

Food is so delicious.

My mouth becomes watery.

I drool at the sight of food.

 

I know all kinds of food.

Food that taste good

Food that taste amazing

And the food that taste terrible.

 

Oh Food, Food, Food.

It comes in all shapes and sizes.

It lifts you up when you’re down.

It comforts you when you’re alone.

But we have so much to choose from.

 

Do I go with chocolate or ice- cream?

Steak or ribs?

Chicken or beef stew?

Vegetables or fruits?

Pap or rice?

 

We all have favourites.

Favourite this!

A favourite that!

A favourite person!

 

Favouritism is all and well.

Except people favour.

Favour discriminates people.

Favour shows prejudice.

 

 

Having favourites made me a judge.

People put on the stand.

Choice put in my hands

Who I like and who I don’t.

My choice has consequences.

Whom shall I choose?

The answer is neither!

 

 

Kindness S

 

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This was inspired by the book of James in the 2nd chapter, where Paul speaks of favouritism. He says that we as Christians should not show favouritism to anyone be it the rich or the poor. A comparison of this would be between, high politician and an everyday working class person. To bring it down to our levels in today’s world, we all have our favourite people. And we would say “this or that person is my favourite person” to others. I know I have. I’m guilty as charged. And it’s okay to have close friends or even best friends but we should be objective when it comes to making decisions. Even if it means choosing between the side of your best friend and someone you barely know. Favouritism in the church of Christ can cause division. Many people have been hurt in their families by the statements that parents make when they say “this is my favourite child” in a family which has more than one child. We don’t want that. Let’s leave the Judge which is Christ to judge not us, because we are definitely not qualified.

 

James 2:1-13

Give it a read 😊

#poetry · Christ · faith · God · insecurity · poem · self-esteem · Uncategorized

My Great Wall

I have walls up, down

To my left and right

All around me.

 

I have learned to become an architect.

In my past, I’ve been wracked.

People had come to my little village.

The came and left a mess.

 

Before I had no walls.

Now I have built one.

Its range goes as far as you sight can see

Its walls are as tall as the sky.

 

Before people they would come and go.

Now no one can enter my village.

My land has been empty of visitors

For years.

 

I have put up walls

Because you broke my heart.

Because not just once but twice.

Not only you but others too.

People entered my little village

And destroyed it.

 

My heart was the village.

The walls built to protect my village.

The bricks I used to build, were made up of…

Attitude, Distrust

Disappointment, Hurt

Prejudice, Pain

And Ignorance

 

The great wall now surround me.

The wall made my love grow cold.

The village lights no longer shine.

My heart has become darkened.

 

A brilliant architect I was.

I build a wall around my heart

To protect my heart from hurt and pain.

The wall that I build became my destroyer.

No longer can I feel, love, trust, or live.

 

People are not all bad.

I will build a new wall.

Built from all that good,

LOVE, JOY HAPPINESS, TRUST & UNDERSTANDING

 

My wall will be strong and immovable.

It will guard my heart and soul.

From the invaders.

From my enemies.

From those who mean my village harm.

 

 

Kindness S

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I’ve been hurt many times in my life, and what hurts us the most is the people closed to us. We have learned to put up walls around ourselves to make it hurt less and over time, we have become dull to the pain. Heartbreak is the worst when the ones we love leave or reject us. We should not close ourselves to people. People will never be perfect, they will always make mistakes like we do. Guard your heart but in the process don’t cut of people from our lives. Let’s forgive one another. I want to share this scriptures that will help us both get back on the right path.

 

Guarding your heart

 

Proverbs 4:23

Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.

 

Let him in your heart (Jesus words to us).

 

John 10:10

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy, I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

 

He will guide us.

 

John 16:13

But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own, he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.

 

Love others

Matthew 22:37-39

Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.